You CAN do this!

 I know that someone out there has been like me, troubled and thinking to themselves, "I can't do this!" I am here to say that you can! I know at times you may feel alone, burdened and that no one understands. I am here to say that HE does. Despite what you may think, God does know our every thought, pain, and desire. He understands us when we don't understand ourselves. He hears us when the pain is so bad you can hardly speak to breathe a word of prayer. He knows. He cares.

I did not want this to be strictly a Christian website, but I feel that I can't reach out to you without you understanding what His goodness and mercy has done for me. I have been in a place where I never thought I would be in my marriage. It was if someone else was living the life, and I was watching it on television.
It was then that He heard me, and although I almost gave up, He never gave up on me. 

I say this to say that you CAN get through the pain! Whatever the outcome, know that God is with you. He said that He will never leave us nor forsake us! What a beautiful thought. Please take time to say a quick prayer. If nothing else just call his name- JESUS! There is power in HIS name! I pray healing into your hearts. I pray peace right now in your life. I pray certainty and completeness comes to you in whatever manner you may need it, be it financial or more personal. God can heal! I pray that He steps into your situation, and frees you from the issues of your life, so that you may LIVE a happy and prosperous life! This is my prayer for you.

Amen.

My Mother's Day Testimony

My testimony is multi-faceted in that it began when I was young and manifested itself throughout my life. My entire life has been a testimony to the goodness and mercy of the Lord. But to give a greater understanding of who I am, and how the Lord has touched me, I will only give one example. Throughout my posts I pray that you will get to see how God kept me even when I could not see the way. I give you this first example.

My mother became ill after a short visit from my home-town. I had always taken her for granted, and I never knew how much her love and support meant to me, until she was gone. However, she had just come to town to help me move into my new home that my husband and I had bought. Although we had little money saved, and poor spending habits, the Lord allowed us to purchase a home.

My mother, who had remained unmarried and lived alone, was visiting shortly after she had retired from a factory that she worked at for years. She became sick, and being a nurse, I noticed that she had not been eating, or doing the things that she would normally do-like get up at five a.m., cook breakfast, clean etc. When I questioned her about how she felt, she would simply state, “I’ll see my doctor when I get home.” However, she never made it home. She became worse and complained o f stomach pain and nausea and vomiting. So, I proceeded to examine my mother after great reluctance on her part. The right side of her stomach was hard to the touch, and tender. She was in a lot of pain. I had to insist that she go to the emergency room.

After much testing, my mother was diagnosed with gallstones and a ruptured gallbladder, and was scheduled for surgery the next day. The next day my mother went down for surgery with my sister and myself at her bedside.  My mother had not been in surgery an hour before two physicians came back in the room with an ominous look upon their face. I knew that something was wrong. They told us that they had to open and close her on the surgical table due to finding cancer throughout her body.

The pain that struck my soul was unimaginable. I was so distraught and I did not know what hit me. I felt lost, angry and confused. This was my mother after all. Someone who had always been there for me whether or not I understood her intentions, they were always to protect and console me. Now I would have to take the time to console her.

The physicians left us with the grave task of informing our mother that she had cancer, and that ultimately she was going to die. What a day! I will always believe that my mother knew about the cancer, and that was a part of her eagerness to get back home. But if she’d only told me… if she had confided in me like I had her so many times before, maybe then she would have had a chance to live more than the few months that she did.

My mother died and she died at my home with me and my children there to love and support her. I thank God for this happening the way that it did. If my mother had gone home, I would not have gotten to take care of her the way that I did. My children would not have gotten a chance to see her every day. She would have just faded away.

God allowed things to happen the way that it did, so that I may take care of my mother. He has always orchestrated how my life should go. I know that He is in charge. I thank Him for even the heartaches and pain, because I know He is trying to show me something.  He has been my ultimate teacher, parent, and lover of my soul. God has been here for me in ways that my husband could not, when my husband could not. When life stood still with the moment I lost my mother, my world changed. I would no longer view my life in the same manner again. Spirituality, seemed nonexistent. I grew cold, unfeeling, and it affected my marriage in every way. I lost my reason to feel-my mother.

I believe it was at this time, God decided to step in to show me that He was my all and all. If I lost my husband, if I lost my home, my children, my mother and father- He was still there. It is amazing, in writing those words- I just realized at some point, to a certain degree- I had lost all of those things! Yet, God still remains! Be encouraged, that whatever you are going through, no matter how bad it seems- God is constant, He is forever, He is always! You may think you have no more energy to endure, but God says that you can! He says you can do all things through Christ that strengthens you! Believe that, and everything will begin to change for you!  I pray that peace and mercy be given unto you that you may know God’s love the way that I know His love. Happy Mother’s Day and God Bless!